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Pay for dinner at his favorite dive
He spent his attention on complaints and starting fights
Til 2:05
Scammed a free night cap for a phantom fly
It makes up for the flirting and the other nine
You watch him fumble home from the passenger side
At .205
You look back at the red flag as he swerves past
This is on you because it happened twice
You made this happen two times
Two points make a line, or a string of guys
Love is pain ergo, then they loved you just right
Forgiving self is easier when its 70 times
.014
Do the math. See the pattern. The common factor is you
It’s you because it happened twice
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Cut in Half
03:16
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I got cut in half and became twice the man
No more dark circles on my eyes and hands
I’ll make friends with the shadow and shatter all hope
Surrender any chance I'll ever be stifled here again
I'll never be stifled again
The shatter is too deep for a clean sweep
And everyone agrees
Hers is a relapse that won't take you down
I cut it in half and then repeat again
Can't trim the wick or risk an accident
(That's no accident)
No more shouldering your anger and speed stick
I'm sick of clipping codes, it's Thanksgiving coupons for toothpaste
We should be with family for God's sake
The shatter is too deep for a clean sweep
But everyone agrees
She left a black eye that won't take you down
You think you've got it now
The proof is plenty for the gown
To make a ghost as you grin
Like the gavel before the drop
I got cut in half and became twice the man
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Retentive
04:15
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Hold the phone, your silent speed ball
Nostalgia holds you cold inside your own head
You thought the introspection would yield some results
Or something else that you could hold
But retentive, you keep a fist
Slow down your heavy heart
Honorary solitary
Don't let go--the night you went full ego
Parking lot pace alone. Feel the wind's chilling stroke
You thought the recollection would yield some results
You mine the hell to find some gold
But depressive, you keep a fist
My joy is contingent upon a forgiveness of past self
And importance of me despite my effect on my own mental health
I'll drag my offense and again until it sells
- Isolate -
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Flood Lights
03:28
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Shooting late night, flood light baskets
We brought our own cause we know what we're doing
Old enough to be up, young enough to afford it
Til the past takes out a mortgage
When finally I listened
Your tone of voice was real poised and non-affect
Too young to give up, I'm old enough to just do it
I feel it deep, deep in your stomach
You draw your plans onto my hand
Trade all my plans for your right hand
I asked for the test, but you wouldn't give it
(ran a hard right, stop sign panic)
It was already trashed and effectively hidden
(Already home you say you weren't expecting)
You said, "Besides the results fade after just 10 minutes."
Enough time for you to reinvent the stick
You drop your hand into my hand
I withdraw my hand out of your hand
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Monster of the Week
02:23
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A monster awakes
That we would would defy all sleep
I lost her on good faith
That Fox would bring up my name, but my name
Is a risk you can't take and it's late
And we'll watch either way
I cancel and I wait
Reopen the files I still read
I approach the crate in hopes
That lock would tarnish and break and my name
Would become a risk you can take and I'll wait
Til you're sure either way
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Beehive
01:40
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Flew off the turning of a page
Who put the beehive in his place
That with her finger bending in my face
Said, "Someone's gonna make you pay"
I broke down in my old room
As I cried to myself
Then a couple of times I thought I had it figured out, but I didn't like I thought I did
Like I thought you would
Who left the doctor in his place?
Don't wait cause the sign up sheet is always full
With the people you have known
With the people you wish you had known long ago
It's mine
Who left the pastor in his place?
Control. With the lion's share of rolling rock and a thorny philanthropic claw too
It's not about who paid for the table
I mean shit
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Headspace
00:20
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Out of Turn
03:52
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Harrison speaks to the sea out of turn, you know
The air that he breathes is the poison of atrophy
...and out of spite
As long as your open body doesn't bite it off
I pray with my eyes open
And wait for the right moment to take
Tame? Out of reach. Wish for peace in the cease fire
Finally out of reach from the cease fire
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26
03:24
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Strike a conversation about how you hate your job
The headliner's on stage and you're out by the third song
You rehash why 25 broke your heart and you almost quit
Then you remember how lucky you are
You still got 26
Take another breath and wonder how you got here
Each one a little harder, a little thinner, a little less clear
You missed departure, declined card, you pull apart, curse Spirit
Then you retreat back to Gilham Park and feel lucky again
Rehash the lie that real art has to be real hard
And you did it right
Then you remember how lucky you are to do any of it
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Don't Squeeze
04:40
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The company party for your retirement was a total hit
You daughter sang while I played
"...someone Stop This Train"
It's been six or so months since I've been seen around, being that we split
She fostered the hope that we'd be "we" again
So she never filled you in
Don't squeeze too tightly
Don't be too nice to me
The parking lot was cold, but California cold. You were shivering
You hoped that a joke would make it warm again
But not so much
Reminded that we'd never be alone ever again
You'd never get across the message
Of whether or not you are carrying
The parking lot was cold, but it was getting old--all the narrative
The passing jokes, passive agressive
I was sick and tired of it
You thought maybe in time that it would work, but it never did
You ran out the clock, not longer curious
Cause I knew
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